Thinking on these things...

"Like a comet pulled from orbit, as it passes a sun. Like a tree that meets a boulder, half way through the wood..."
Just yesterday someone asked me how I carried myself so well after what happened with my sister. My reply was, "I'm at the point in life where it has become part of my life. There comes a point when you realize that you have to continue on with your life. It's what that person would've wanted."
But then, I thought, Wow...I guess I really don't think about her death as much as I used too. Does this make me a bad person?
The truth is, no. I miss her each and every day. When she died, my whole world collapsed. I don't think my world has been the same since December 17th, 2010. But as I look towards college and a nursing career, a husband and a family...I don't find myself wanting to dwell on death. A couple months ago, I sat down in my bed and thought about what Melanie would say to me if she could talk to me.
"Quit your crying...you know you're going to see me again!"
"Don't worry honey, I'm way better up here."
"Take care of Neil and Eric for me...but don't spoil Neil too much!"
I miss her a lot. It's not easy losing a childhood best friend who helped make you who you were. But the changes that have been made in me, and the things I was taught through her death, I would not change for anything.